Why I Didn’t Do Anything About My Postpartum Depression

***This is my experience with PPD and my own opinions. I wrote this to get my feelings out. To maybe let someone else know they aren’t the only one feeling this way. To maybe help someone understand their loved one going through PPD.***

(I wrote this a few years ago and finally have the courage to post it. I have since started therapy and changed antidepressants and doses several times. My depression is an ongoing battle.)

I have been coping with postpartum depression for over three years now. I started treating it after my son turned two and added a medication at the end of my second pregnancy. Going on antidepressants was one of the best decisions of my life, but it took me a long time to get to that point. I still have hard days. Sometimes I find myself staring at the wall while my toddler plays and my baby sleeps in my arms, and I’m numb. I have flashbacks to what it was like. I can’t believe I lived like that for so long. Continue reading “Why I Didn’t Do Anything About My Postpartum Depression”

Why My Medically Complex Child is Exactly What I Needed

I’d never heard the term “medically complex” before, but it is the best way to describe my son. We are still learning about everything going on with him. If you’d asked me a year ago how I would feel about having a child with medical issues, I would have said I’d be terrified. As much as I wish my little boy didn’t have to go through so much, there are so many reasons I am grateful for our situation. Continue reading “Why My Medically Complex Child is Exactly What I Needed”